Aiming for full control

Just a quick update: I finally walked up to the guy at the bus stop and talked to him. We only chatted for a few minutes, and he was lovely. It's been half an hour since, and I'm still shaking.

G.U.Y. - Lady Gaga

(Artpop, who'd have thought...)

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Maybe, this time, I'll be yours, you'll be mine

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Looking sideways

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